Wednesday, July 6, 2011

I think it's fair to say I am a VERY inconsistent blogger... honestly the only reasons I even made a blog were 1. to post pictures for my Young Life girls' parents to see (fail. that's what Facebook is for) and 2. so that I could see all the blogs I follow in one place.

I may not be much of a writer but I will say that the past few months have been crazy and whirlwind-ish and exciting and heartbreaking and exhausting and wonderful. Such is the life of an intern... I am trying to enjoy the last few weeks of technically being a college student. Because after I walk across that stage on August 13 I have NO CLUE what is next. But Jesus does. And that will always always always be enough!

Remind me of that if I start freaking out this time next month.

Friday, June 10, 2011

where children sleep

I came across this book (Where Children Sleep by James Mollison) a few weeks ago and I am obsessed. I really want to find a hard copy for my coffee table, but it is also available online for free. It is sweet, it is heartbreaking, it is a little funny (you'll know what I mean when you see the picture of the beauty queen girl in Kentucky with 700 trophies all throughout her room), and it is eye-opening.

Where Children Sleep

Wednesday, May 18, 2011


Sometimes it feels like thinking about someone's suffering is the same as doing something about it. Don’t take the bait. -Bob Goff

Seriously. When Bob Goff tweeted (follow him on Twitter! he is fantastic!) that a while back, I realized that I had done just that. I had taken the bait. I realized that I spend a WHOLE lot of time THINKING about orphans, and not much DOING.

Jesus does not call me to worry about orphans. He calls me to CARE for them. And no, I can't do very much, but I can do SOMETHING.

Some organizations that are awesome:

Show Hope
147 Million Orphans
Reece's Rainbow
Project Hopeful

I am only one, but still I am one. I cannot do everything, but still I can do something; and because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do something that I can do.
-Helen Keller

Sucre, Bolivia
June 2006

Monday, May 16, 2011


I just realized that I hardly ever post pictures. Probably because I spend the majority of my time either in class or babysitting... but now since the class part is over (forever... so weird!) I will hopefully think to bring my camera along with me more often.

Anyways, here are some pictures from my Young Life girls' prom a few weeks ago. I am so thankful to have been their leader. I am also so thankful that I never have to be in high school again, because let's face it, trying to pin a corsage on someone while countless adults take pictures is just awkward.

Friday, May 13, 2011

your pain has changed me

"Your pain has changed me
Your dream inspires
Your face a memory
Your hope a fire
Your courage asks me what I'm made of
And what I know of love"

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Beginning of the End

Last night was my last club as a Young Life leader at Blackman. This is HUGE because I have been a Young Life leader there for four years and followed a group of girls from their freshman to senior year (with another group I picked up for a year after their leader moved to another city)... and it has been a huge time commitment and I have given so much of myself to this ministry. So much of my college experience is wrapped up in Young Life, my closest friends in college (and in life) have been made through Young Life... Last night my team prayed for me, my girls said the sweetest things about me at club (since it was senior night and they got to talk a little bit), my girls cried as we talked about how we would only have one more campaigners before they (and I) graduate... and I didn't cry. At all. I was completely emotionless (if that's even a word). I kept waiting for the tears to come... and they never did. On the drive home I kept thinking I would hear some particularly emotional song and start weeping... didn't happen. I thought at some point today it would hit me that I was really done with Young Life and I would lose it... nope. I don't know if this is all good or bad or if I haven't really processed it yet... it's just interesting I guess.

But anyways...

thank you Lord for the privilege and honor of being these sweet girls' leader... I am forever grateful for how much of Yourself You revealed to me through this ministry.

Also I in about 10 minutes I am leaving for my last college class. Ever.

Changes anyone?

Love yall,

Monday, April 4, 2011

2 questions

This is going to be the world's shortest and most useless blog post because I am in the middle of studying for a test (which I am clearly very focused on) but I was told I need to update this more. So I am trying. I seriously feel like I have nothing to blog about right now because school is dominating my mind and time so I would just like to pose two questions:

1. Does anyone else feel like they have so much to do they can't do anything well?


2. How old is too old to have a Justin Bieber ringtone?

Any and all answers appreciated.

Love yall,

Thursday, March 17, 2011

the only thing that matters is Your love

This is going to be a really short post (although I'm not sure who even reads this... I just made one so I could more easily keep up with OTHER people's blogs... yall know I love them)...

Over the past few weeks I have been processing a LOT of stuff. I don't even know how to begin to summarize it in a blog post... and I'm sure it would be really boring... so long story short I just have to say that God is continually showing me who He is and who I am because of that. And a big thing I have been thinking about... the God of the universe died for Me and His spirit lives inside of me... and if I REALLY chose to daily live in that truth, I think my life would look a lot different. And it DOES look a lot different than it did a year ago, and I am thankful. It is so easy to give in to fear and anxiety... and after years of that I think I have just come to a place (because of the Lord of course, I have done nothing on my own) where I realized that I am going to have to CHOOSE to believe the TRUTH about who I am and who God is. Jesus Calling has been an amazing daily reminder of that... and every change in my personality and spirit has nothing to do with me and everything to Jesus.

I don't know if that even made sense but I have a paper to write so on that note... :)

Love yall,

P.S. I read this book during two 2 hour flights on Monday and it was INCREDIBLE. Seriously. I have never marked up a book so much in my life. Google Dan Cruver.

Sunday, February 27, 2011


Two books that have changed my life (not just saying that, I think about what I've read in these books ALL THE TIME):

Seriously. If you haven't read them, I SO recommend them both. Over the past year or so God has totally revolutionized my entire life, my way of thinking, what I have a heart for, and these books have aided in that. I'm still trying to process what I'm learning and how I'm growing... but to sum it up (for now), I am SO THANKFUL.

Thankful that God has opened my eyes to "the least of these", thankful for the heart he has given me for orphans, thankful for what He is teaching me.

... and thankful that I live in a country where I can talk freely about Jesus, thankful that I can attend church without risking my safety, thankful that I live in a safe place with electricity and heat and running water, thankful that I was born healthy (albeit HUGE... 9lbs 12oz) in a hospital to parents who wanted me and were excited for me to join them.

With that said, I will not stop at just being thankful. There are millions of people in this world who do not share these same privileges- and I cannot ignore their need for the Gospel and for their basic physical needs to be met. I will try my hardest to advocate, to pray, to help meet their needs, etc.

I seriously have no idea what this will look like... so right now I am just going to BE HERE in THIS MOMENT and do what I can RIGHT NOW.

Everyone to whom much was given, of him much will be required... Luke 12:48

Love yall,

P.S. The party for Mandi/little fundraiser we had for The Kramers
went great... it was so fun\humbling to see a bunch of college students scraping change out of their cars and giving up Starbucks $ in order to bring sweet Ivan home. I am horrible about taking pictures so there aren't any, sorry folks!! :)

Saturday, February 12, 2011

break my ♥ for what breaks Yours

I sobbed as I watched this.

It is our duty to care for "the least of these" and they are DESPERATE.

"You live amongst the least of these... the weary and the weak"

Love yall,

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Just Love

A sweet family from my church is adopting a little boy from Eastern Europe... and they are using Just Love Coffee as one of their fundraisers. Now I know the handful of friends of mine that read this blog all LOVE coffee, so why not buy a bag of awesome coffee (seriously I just bought a bag last week and it is so good) that helps out this family bring their precious boy home? Click here to check out their Just Love page .

And click here to check out their family blog.

James 1:27- Pure and genuine religion in the sight of God the Father is to care for ORPHANS and widows in their distress and not to let the world corrupt you.

Love yall,

Monday, February 7, 2011


The reason I started this blog is pretty simple. God has set my heart on fire for orphans, widows, adoption, and "the least of these". It is kind of funny- when I was trying to come up with a name for my blog, I tried literally every verse or phrase or word that had anything to do with orphans/adoption but they were all taken. Which is WONDERFUL. But it also made me question a little bit what difference I can even make. I am a 22 year old college student (until I graduate in August), I have no wife\mother experience (just a LOTTTTTT of babysitting- which I love)...

Today I had a conversation with a friend where I shared a little bit of my heart for orphans and adoption... and her reaction was less than enthusiastic. I have wonderful friends and family who are so supportive... but her comment was so discouraging.

But not 20 minutes later, I had a conversation with a girl who has a heart for 'the least of these' that is so similar to mine I wanted to cry.

And then it hit me full force... GOD. IS. FAITHFUL.

I have said that probably 1000 times and I KNOW that it is true but that He would care enough to affirm me and encourage me in that situation left me so thankful that I serve a God who is personal and real and DIED so that He could have a relationship with me.

I don't feel equipped, I don't feel like I have anything together, I don't have a clue what I am going to do when I graduate, I don't know where God is leading me... but I DO feel called. And I will follow Him where He leads me.

Love yall,

Saturday, February 5, 2011


I couldn't find the real video for this (there may not be one)... some of the pictures are a little silly :) but this song is where I got got the first name of my blog... which I have since changed like six times but it is now but really listen to the words of this song- love it! (oh and make sure you pause my music player at the bottom)

Love yall,

Friday, February 4, 2011

Clear Eyes, Full Hearts

I am one of those people that when I like something, I LOVE it. To the point of obsession. And this is no exception:

Seriously. I am obsessed with this show. If you've never watched it, you should. I think I am partial to this because of the stories of these high schoolers and their lives remind me so much of my sweet Young Life girls. These kids have no idea that there is a world beyond dating, texting, high school, etc. I know I am only 22 and I am really not that much older than my sweet girls but the broken relationships the characters on the show and my Young Life girls face are heartbreaking.

I am desperate for these girls to know there is Someone who can and will love them perfectly and can fill any emptiness they have inside. I am desperate for these girls to know they are treasured and loved and they are worth so much more than what the world has convinced them they are worth. I am desperate for these girls to have a relationship with the One who sacrficed EVERYTHING so that they could come to Him.

Thank you Lord for the privilege of being a Young Life leader and for the right to speak truth into the lives of these precious girls.

Love yall,

Monday, January 31, 2011

Sunday, January 30, 2011

First Post

Even though I have been following other peoples' blogs for forever, I have never really had the urge to make one. Actually, I take that back, I had to make one for a class I took my junior year of college but I never looked at it again and I certainly had no intention of keeping up with it. But with all things God is doing in my life and in the people around me and how much of that is kept up with in the "blog world" I thought I would give this a try. It may last a total of two weeks but we'll see. :)

Love yall,